what more I could carry ....
three months ago I get a very demanding job ....
No ... it's not that demanding, perhaps I am just pressured because I am working alone.
I worked with a project where I do all the things. It is hard and challenging.
At first I really felt tired, moving with the changes and keeping up with the pace.
I always get new scripts new campaigns... that means you need to put new things in your mind ASAP and bugle them down to be an effective marketing tool....
Honestly it turned out to be very stressful at first .... handling 6 different Campaigns in one Project (Appointment Setting, Order Entry, Closing Sales, Free Membership Set Up, Travel Request, and the side duties to keep the files systematized.)
is never easy.
But I worked hard, I adjusted to be alone, I eat alone, I chill alone, I stop and start alone. But I am learning, I handle my own time, I discipline myself, I ran my own team ... yeah I am my team! I learned to be strong.
And I moved with the changes I have to do good .... I tried getting a hard voice (which sometimes works)... most of the time I brainstorm with my own brain ...
Yeah I learned more of my Intrapersonal... Quick Decision making .... Risk Taker .... and a Comedian of my own.
With all that I got a good figure of appointments made. And a reasonable sales ... (Hard Selling .... I do outbound sales .... and it's very hard.... But I sold two tickets...).
After all these changes and acceptance .... I learned to love it, in just a short time .... I want to do it ... I come to work very early and excited to work as someone who represents Worldwide Travel Savings the only staff from the Philippines... I enjoy talking to people on the phone ( even if I get lots of machines..).
Plus I got a very good American Employer, she taught me a lot of things (still teaching), and gave me a lot of reasons to love my Job. I like her mentality, very far from Filipino Crab Mentality .... And I like how she organized everything ... a well-ordered woman.... She is very cool too... I enjoy having her on my computer
chatting and laughing ... I had so much fun working with her.
And just when I find it comfortable and wanting the Job, I found out a very sad line she sad "He says they normally cancel a campaign when that happens, but he is willing to give me one more week to see how these leads work out. If they don't work out, I will lose you and my contract. I am deeply sorry... You are my best person.... I need to hire more from your office not give up!!! I need to make this work. I promise I am working hard to try. I am making calls myself to help out."
The initial response to that is crying ... (I cannot make calls this morning so I end up writing this) ... I just cried ... I am thinking that I will not only loose the account (project) but also a good employer like Rosemarie.
I want to move on, it could be easy, but for me it's sad and hard because I learned to love my work, and I love it now, I worked hard to make it work .... but still I got this thing .... I feel something so heavy inside my heart ... I will missed .... my work....(I have one more week to try if this will really work....I will do my best and pray for the best...)
always assuming ....
I've been in this earth for almost 22 troubled years.
I don't really understand why, there are a lot of people in this earth that damn make assumptions about you....yeah about me!
For so many times and for their opinionated reasons they assume to be me, by saying what is me, who am I and even assumingly feel what I feel!
Most of the time it sounds so funny, they keep on saying I am gay, some are even working hard to prove that infront of my face and tell it in a s-----g way.
But they just don't use their brain, why the heck they care about it?
First very good reason I don't bring them harm with my soft like a lady voice or my super slow lady like movements ...
Second and another good reason they don't surely want to get tired thinking of this stupid thing (He's gay).
I mean everyone could easily say it and if I am I would freely tell, why would I keep myself in agony trying to hide the real me, if I am.
And sometimes they would even make decisions for you, they just don't have any idea how happy I am to be real... and isn't it fine to be that way rather than to pretend.
Yeah, if I don't really have that masculine hard voice and that sturdy physique why do I need to pretend.
And hey there are lots of people who assumed a lot and who would tell themselves (this guy likes me, I should set him out...overly conceited) if thats the case I would say, " Where are all the f------s? They should tell YOU, F --- ---....Ahhhhrrr too much of this bad lines.....
But yeah it makes my world troubled.... they are making a lot of assumptions ... they have brains ... big brains .... but they just love to talk about other people ... the best advice is to look at the mirror ....(You guys are not Perfect!)
You only see the 10% percent of me, don't be so confident to tell a lot about me... I don't like doing this .... but I feel hurt ....everytime I walk through this life I crossed among many people .... wonderful people ... wonderful at first .... and I feel so sorry that they S--- own a marvelous assuming heart .... blaspheme ....
If I could only lend you my brain, and think for me; if you have my heart and feel what I feel, perhaps ... I'll believe you saying all these things.... but you did not think using my brain, and did not beat with my heart .... and that means theres no other way you can tell who really I am ....
STOP ASSUMING GUYS!
not my profession?
Ever since I am a twisted student, I am not rude it's just that my teachers had a hard time teaching me...
In college I took up Electronics and Communication Engineering, yes I want to become an
Engineer but things just change when I need to decide to stop going to school.
I took different Jobs not related to my Profession ... I worked as a Cashier, Cook, and Waiter in a Restaurant. And I am working as a Marketing Associate in one of the BPO (Business Process Outsourcing) Company in our country.
And during Saturdays we don't have a work, and I always go with Ate Angel's(my Marketing Executive) school. We usually spend the day there eating ... eating ... and I would also attend her classes. (Sit in)
Then I am planning to take a Foreign Language Short Term Course ... and seeing the Bulletin Boards for some updates on the course we found a different course ... a course I never thought I would be getting in ...
Yeah we saw the postings for a Part Time ESL Instructor ... And I just thought it could be interesting ... so with Ate Angel we tried to apply for the position...
I never thought it would be that exciting ... We had an interview ... an exam (quite hard) and surprise to be invited for a teaching DEMO...
Waaahh I am amazed ... that the unbearable student before will be taking steps to take the Profession he would not imagine to do. Yeah I will be a TEACHER ...
ANd this is one is much diffirent than what a normal student do inside the classroom ( not like me before ) because I will be handling a Foreign Students who wants to learn how to speak English ... well honestly I still don't have much idea of how hard and tough it will be .... but I am very excited ...
The next day I did my Teaching DEMO, I talked about Foods specifically in making PIZZA in 15 minutes with one Foreign Student ... he is a Korean, his name is Kevin and I really had Fun because he is participating in my Class, Polite and Smart .... (I have no idea that they can be kind, like Kevin).
Then after that I had an interview with one of the Officials of the school ... Ms. Emmeline Hwang .... I had a great time with her, because its like we just had a free talk ... but that time I had a feeling of liking the Job of being a Teacher so I did my best to get the Job ... we've talked a lot and enjoy the conversation so much ...but am still clueless and unsure if I am qualified for the Job or if I could really become a TEACHER!
Suddenly the front desk officer told us that we are invited to comeback tomorrow for a job offer and final interview with Mr. Hwang (the GENERAL MANAGER).
I am confused with the term JOB OFFERED but still need to undergo a final interview.
But still kept on trying, and submitted myself in the SCHOOL ADMINISTRATION OFFICE the next day ... before meeting the GENERAL MANAGER I had the chance to talk to Ms. Hwang again and she talked to me about the JOB and shared to me the contract and was surprise when she told me that they are accepting me to be one of their teachers ...
Waahhhh I could kick my heart that moment was really fantastic and great ... my heart beats so fast and I am so happy... but then am still surprise when she congratulate me and told me that I need to wait in the lobby for a final interview with Mr. Hwang..
The next thing I know is that I am sitting in front of Mr. Hwang reminding me of their strict policy ( We are very strict in attending ....wrong grammar ) But he looks not so biting me ....hehehehe
And he asked me, "How did you know about us?" "We saw a posting at Cebu Normal University (one of the Universities here in Cebu, I replied to him trying to hide my childish mind ...and he sound and looks so serious when he said, "Is Cebu Normal University?" ( he uttered the words so difficult to understand because of his accent) so I did not understand ... and Ms. (Mrs.) Hwang politely told me that Mr. Hwang is just joking ... and before I could react to that he ask me to wait outside and thank me. I shake his hand and thank him too.
Waaahahhhh... I am so happy when they told me that the next day we will be reporting in the school as new TEACHERS .... WOW ..... !!!
And when we had our first day ... Mr. Hwang invited us again in his office for another talk...but this time he ask the whole group of NEW TEACHERS ... I cannot concentrate listening to his message because only until that moment, sunk in to my mind about Mr. Hwang trying to throw a Joke .... and I appreciate it ....he told us that we need to act as Professional to keep us, as member of his Family ... the SCHOOL...
Waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh I am a TEACHER now...
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